At the Top of Their Lungs

I've never heard screams like this before. As I stood with my mouth hanging open, my heart pierced by each shriek, I couldn't help but look around me to see who else could hear. At this moment the difference between hearing and listening became ever-more potent. To those surrounding myself and the pigs, their cries for help were nothing but background noise. Those sounds, for me, are some I will never forget. 

Screaming but No One Heard

Screaming at the top of their lungs. In that moment, the sound rested upon my ears only. Alone- there was nothing I could do. If there were hundreds of us, maybe thousands to hear their cries at that desperate time. I believe that there is something more we could have done to save them. 

How can Screams mean Smooth?

"There aren't enough OOOOOOs in the word Smooth to describe this trailer" he claims. 

Has he himself ever taken a ride in one of his trucks I wonder? Would it be fit for his pets and family? 

"Much better than standard trailers" he brags as you hear a pig scream. I call out "It isn't much better- Is it!" It was almost as if the pig shook his head "No!" 

Screams to Silence

Heart-aching screams to sudden silence. A preview of the empty truck that will leave one hour later, after having left these souls at the slaughterhouse. It was as if a wave of calm passed over them- if even for a moment. 

Calling out- "I'm Right Here!"

I ran alongside this truck approaching the intersection, reaching out my arm and calling out "I'm right here." The pigs kept my gaze as the truck turned the final corner. 

The final truck I witnessed this morning was full of pigs screaming for freedom. I responded- "I hear you!" After a minute the pigs stopped screaming and the truck went almost completely silent. It was an extremely surreal moment to experience. It was almost as if a wave of peace wafted over us -just in that moment. 

I Wait for Hours

Sometimes I spend hours waiting outside the slaughterhouse to endure mere moments that pass by in the blink of an eye. Patiently waiting is the most surreal feeling in the world. Obviously I do not want the trucks carrying pigs to their slaughter to arrive. But if they are, I want to be there to document their suffering and expose it to the world. 

Her Bloody Snout

Reaching out with a bloody snout. Both of us wish there were a way to get her out.

Red blood reprimands her perfectly pink nose.

Pigs Without Teeth

I had never had my hand so far inside a pig's mouth. She placed all of my fingers and palm past her lips to rest on the bumpy roof of her mouth. I was startled when I felt not a single tooth- They are always so gentle but these pigs had all had their teeth trimmed/ground off shortly after birth. This is a standard industry practice I wasn't aware of until today- even after 3 years of experience and research. Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse...

The Soft Morning Light

The soft morning sunlight was shining down on both myself and the pigs. I can't erase their faces from my mind- not that I even want to. I just can't help myself from thinking over and over again that they didn't live to see this evenings sunset.

Apologizing Ins't Enough

Honestly, it never gets easier. Some think I'm numb to the heart-ache, some wonder how I continue to do this. It has been over three years- each time feelings of never being able to do enough keep me coming back. 

When you meet these animals for yourself; being present, even offering love and sympathy simply isn't enough.

They Plead To Us

They are pleading for us to understand their position- their suffering and experience of torment. We can do something to stop this. Change your eating habits- like their lives depend on it. 

Look at Those Eyes

Look at their eyes. Look at them-all of them. They just want freedom- they want out of there. They want to live to see another day- they are pleading for us all to understand. 

I connected deeply with this pig

I connected deeply with this pig trapped inside. She pressed her snout out the transport grate- I offered as much love and sympathy as I could muster. My heart tore with desire to set her free. This moment was brief- yet I'll remember it forever. 

Oinks and Screams

Cries from both sides of the trailer. My own cry out to help; the pigs cry out for freedom. 

Whenever I approach a truck, I always scan the open grate holes for faces. I walked up to two snouts poking out at me and they affectionately came closer. The two pigs allowed me to pet their faces and one even reached out to lick my hand just like a puppy.

Rub Their Snouts Against My Nose

They are always so affectionate and forgiving. 

I'll never forget this moment. I felt overwhelmed by so many snouts peeking out at me as four pigs take turns rubbing their snouts against my nose. After experiencing such hurt by the harsh human hand, they still didn't hesitate to come closer to connect. 

How do you apologize for one of the worst crimes in human history? Actions speak louder than words.

"What Is She Thinking?"

"Get off the road you idiot!" A woman yells out of her car. 

I wonder if she would feel differently had she seen their faces for herself- the faces of the animals trapped inside. I wonder if she would be right there beside me fighting for their freedom. 

"Get off the road- What is she thinking?" I say to the pigs. "I'm so sorry"- With all of my heart.